Geez. has it really been that long since i last wrote on this blog? my last entry was may of 2013?! that was 7 years ago. How the hell are y'all? safe and sane, i hope. lol enough preamble.
The story behind this album:
I put up a poll back in the summer of 2019. "should I do a big show in the fall?" the poll came back 100 percent "yes." waited a couple of days, hit up the owners at New York Comedy Club got a date, and we were underway. Weeks passed and I said, "I should record this show." not with any real intention but to "capture a moment." However, I would not really understand the moment we captured, until later. Back to the lead up. it is a few weeks before the show. I am nervous (I always get that way before shows like this) because the club is telling me it is "selling well" but I did not know who was buying the tickets. a lot of my usual supporters either had not gotten theirs yet / they were not going to make it, but the club insists we were likely to sell out. Fast forward to night of the show.
we officially sold out. Had 3 of my favorite comedians on the show, Matt Richards As the MC, Mikey Mayes and Daniel Tirado featuring. Found out that the folks that were buying the tickets were mostly people who had either seen me on stage in the last year at random clubs and spots , people I’d met in the supermarket and told I was a comedian in passing, folks from the cigar spot, folks I basically just met/ all showed up. Matt. Mikey, and Dan killed it! Now it is time for me to go on. Matt does the intro, says my name... the pop I got from that crowd, was LOUD, fam. what you hear in the album, that audio comes from the microphone that is on the stage. in my hand. if I played the raw audio from in the room... you cannot even hear Matt bring me up. they were that loud. after I did my set I hung out, took pictures with everyone, gave hugs shook hands. and decided to hang out at the club. to smile and enjoy what just happened. Still I did not know I was going to do anything with it, but I was glad we captured it. that was in October 2019. from then we go to February 2020. I had already decided to make "Marscellus" an album then thinking I had captured an amazing show and some of my best material. I had gotten news of a big opportunity that was finna happen in April, blah blah blah, then corona virus.
Man, that shit came in and looked at my schedule/calendar/ plans/ expectations and said "PAUSE!!!" Man, before the stay at home orders happened, I was like oh well hopefully they will just half capacities we will still be able to... shieeeet. nah everything. stay home, now. 3/17 I had the first "breakdown" I was like shit "will it ever come back" "what fucked timing" "why now?" "how am I going to?!" all these questions I had never asked myself b4. worried that the only thing I love doing, the only thing I ever worked to master for almost more than half my lifetime might be extinct? I was scared/ sad. so much so I was crying, whole 9. I say all of that to say this. on 3/17/2020. after the breakdown, after my mom gave me some words and after dad gave me some wisdom. I had to look for something I do not usually ever look for. "help. “but who’d understand? (probably a lot of people. but I was sad so sense making did not make sense.) I decided to listen to the show we recorded again. For the first time I could appreciate what we really captured. That is "a kid in his happy place." I listened back to this show we recorded, and I could hear how much FUN we had. I could hear myself "smile" if that makes sense. I could hear how excited I was to tell jokes I had told hundreds of time like it was the first. that is what we captured. this album is an audio picture of a 62-minute moment where I am having some of the most fun, I have ever had on stage. it is a guy. doing what he loves most, in front of the people he loves most, having a great time together. featuring some of my best material, . Marscellus is a name my pops gave me. it is the middle one. The only people who know that are those closest to me. hence you all now know the name, so it is my way of saying you are all that much closer to me. Shit is weird right now. but what got me through my hard time was listening to the audience (YOU) in this tape. they made me smile. if you are an anime nerd you likely know Luffy from one piece's epic speech after he thought he lost everything but remembered he still had his pirate crew? that is what this was for me. realizing that. this is for my crew!!! the whatever number of people that like what it is I do. y'all make me "feel big" (reference Lil Wayne Mr. Carter song) a lot of folks assumed that live performance was going to be dead and what has kept me from that was again yall. the people who inbox and say soon as this is over they are coming to see a show, they can’t wait for me to put out a special , etc. y'all got me right during this weird time, and put a smile on my face. I thank You for that. This one is for you. I hope You enjoy it. sincerely yours